If you’re familiar with this “blog”, well, congratulations. If you recall anything remotely similar about the existence of this website, then I’m rather honored by it. If AAA triggers something deep inside your subconscious, then I hope it brings nostalgia, but it probably won’t.
Okay, let’s remove this huge elephant from the room, shall we? Long time, no see.
My last submission was last year during mid-summer of June (or was it July?) where I was being excitable about working two jobs so I can support myself through college. I left the Asian Taiwanese drama Bromance on a cliffhanger, and yes, I did finish the series. I paused on my review of 1Q84 (1984 In Question) and drafted it for a later date. However, I did not realize later date meant next year or possibly never. Just kidding, I’ll post something again soon >w’.
Readers, I have a confession to make…
I’ve been avoiding this blog like the plague. Why? How? What brings this justification? Well, I guess it all boils down to shame. Pure, unadulterated shame that covers me like a tattered blanket. Due to personal and family reasons, I felt incredibly embarrassed about my unfiltered joy for Asia and its contents. Humiliated that I bothered to invest in Japan’s economic interests when I should have placed that same loyalty to America’s politics and financial decisions made by my government. But I was oblivious, blissfully lost in my fantasies of a perfect land with a perfect structure and culture just for me. It’s silly, isn’t it? Well, I worked and worked, saving up money to achieve a basic understanding of Algebra mathematics, then managing through Computer Concepts while reminiscing of Asia as I pursue Art classes.
To place it bluntly, I’d lost interest. I was too busy to bother with anime episodes, dramas, or even research latest news of tensions between China, South Korea, North Korea and U.S military disagreements. Grades, grades, grades! It mattered whether I made a B or an A, and every slip up caused me to fall in slight depression. I worked on the weekends, then tried to watch anime to recuperate my stress as I inhaled dollar made noodles. But it wasn’t enough. I would barely get past episode six.
I couldn’t keep up. I failed myself in maintaining the blog I’ve worked so hard on. Most importantly, I’ve failed the tiny audience I had. Talk about the bundling shame I felt, and so, I went into hiding, disappeared off the face of the Earth. Pretended I never created a blog within the first place. Like, what blog? I certainly didn’t make one. As next semester passed by me and 2017 smacked into my face, I couldn’t help but to feel guilty. Swept it under the rug, and now the dust bunnies were itching to crawl out. *Sigh* It is genuinely my fault, and I should take responsibility.
Forgive me, everyone.
How did I gather courage to write this? Well, it wasn’t intentionally, but I decided to start a fundraiser. It’s called FundMyTravel, and it’s a website where people can place donations and send money to campaigns- whether it’s personal, educational, medical, volunteer work and so forth. I actually happened to find this website by accident, but I’m glad that I’ve found it.
I set up an account and is currently forming a campaign, but I’m uncertain how people will react to it. Then… I found a link referring to WordPress. And I had flashbacks of my pink blossomed background with that adorable, cutesy font and me spawning over Asian music videos. And, well, that’s how I ended up typing this.
I’m still in school, and I’m trying to maintain my grades. I’ll also be working in the summer and going to summer school. It’ll be quite the trip, but I hope it’s worth it :).
Thanks for reading.
P.S: I haven’t watched an anime, drama, movie or read a good Oriental book in a while. Whenever I have free time, I’ll try and get back into motion, okay? Stay tuned.